Come back....please.

There were many things in life that I wanted to abandon,
Horrible fears that plagued, from them, I wanted to run,
I wanted to sprint, wanted to escape,
I wanted the danger to go away.

Anxiety and depressions,
Fear and aggression,
Stupid dreams and jealousy,
Self-condemnation and other such things.

I wanted them all to leave quietly,
Exit from my life so that peaceful I could be,
But there were many other things I wanted,
I just desired people like you to stay.

People like you, the most important,
Cherished by my heart, with affection,
I wanted you to stay, I wanted you,
Was I selfish, in my claim over you?

Aha, but I didn’t want to chain,
So when you said you’d go, I didn’t complain,
I was just sad, because the fault was mine,
I was just so shocked and horrified.

But my anguish to you, I didn’t show,
Because that was the right thing to do, but in my mind, I travelled to and fro,
Between anguish and so deep a depression,
Between sorrow, and dejection.

All those feelings, I wanted to go away,
Came back to me, came back to scare,
And all that had once been withdrawn,
Reminded me that it was never gone.

But all that I wanted to stay,
Slowly, dissolved away,

But strong stays my desire,
Come back to me, please, this is dire.

11:26 pm, 10th January, 2010.