Bad Enough?

Pretty I was not,
Of empathy, I was short,
Love, I did not hold in bounty,
I was insolent, I did not know courtesy.
Was I bad enough, for thee?

Stubborn was I, wicked and evil,
Narrow-minded and boastful, I was impossible.
Stone-cold and dormant, did you think I was heartless?
Rotten and fiendish, did you think I knew no kindness?
Was I bad enough, for thee?

Grace, I lacked, in every sense.
But you still called me enchantress.
Was I deceitful, cunning and immoral?
Before you, did I appear vile?
Was I bad enough for thee?

Was I too silly, stupid, a creature?
Beauty, did I lack, in facial feature?
Was I impudent, puerile and guilty?
Was that why you decided to let me be?
Was I bad enough for thee?

Was I immoral, sinful and beastly?
Did I ever appear bossy?
Was I too self-involved and preachy?
Did I laugh at the wrong jokes, was I lazy?
Was I bad enough for thee?

Did I swear too much, Stinging words, did I speak?
Was I imposing, did I force you to stay with me?
Was I a con artist, did I repeatedly cheat?
Did I play a double-game, or secrets did I leak?
Was I bad enough for thee?

Was I barbaric, was I insane?
Was I keen of hurting others, did I believe in sly games?
Was I a monster, who simply liked to scare?
Was I unfaithful, did I ever ask for more than my share?
Was I bad enough for thee?

Did I scream too loud, did I only complain?
Did I treat you in disrespect, your character, did I taint?
Was I just too morose, too full of myself and self-centered?
Was I eccentric, did I appear weird?
Was I bad enough for thee?

Was I dishonest, crooked and false?
Your mettle, did I purposely try to mar?
Didn’t I pray for your safety, from afar?
Didn’t I tell you that you were my shining star?
Was I bad enough for thee?

I was not appealing, I was not delicate,
I wasn’t dainty, charming or perfect.
But this I was, a very true friend,
I was loyal and unwavering, but was that insufficient?
Was I bad enough for thee?

The song-bird spoke at 6:53 pm on the 13th of Decemeber, 2009.