The Ginkgo




A pretense of azure,
Happy summer skies,
The somber clouds do part an inch,
To allow for mischief.


They’re tremulous today,
Bent and acquiescing,
Succumbing in dignified solemnity,
But do I catch that one quivering for release?


Or this one, in crowded space,
Chocking in the emerald, thronged,
Why, the guilt, I now wonder,
Can I find me in there, somewhere?


Oh look, a ginkgo leaf hesitating like one charmed,
No webs, no venation,
Just plain and simple.
A marvel.


At last I found the leaf that was me,
Upon the sidewalk, stalling,
Like one in young love, chasing pretentious sunshine,
Into scattered shadows, and then back again.

Oh Hedwig!

When into amber eyes I looked,
Gone was I, led astray,
The world rocked and shook,
Pronouncing joyous accolades.

Lost by not pitifully so,
For I still knew my way,
Held loose, but very close,
And then, wandering there.

Oh Hedwig, oh Hedwig, I called
To that snowy owl of mine,
Myths, on wings, so alive,
To love and life, I used to cry.

For the sun shone when it was no more day,
For the letters, come what may,
Oh Hedwig, I called, take them to the happy place,
The thousand letters preciously encased.

For there is no more gloom, when here she be,
No more room for tragedy,
No more hurt, no more pain,
For this she could be, just simply an everything.

The three good mares

The front yard housed the three good mares,
Neighing, prancing and frolicking there,
Bestowed with warmth, love and care,
They lived free, the three good mares.

The three good mares, she looked upon,
And as months rolled, and pansies sprung,
To keep them strong, healthy and young,
She served them, and spotted returning affection in all.

The first one from the south did come,
A battered but playful soul,
She knew of the horse from once before,
A forgotten song, forgiveness and more.

The other one, had grown with her to this day,
Helping her through, always being there,
She hugged the lovely animal, the color of clay,
Relishing the warmth in her one true friend.

The last was new to the shed,
But sincere, still, all the same,
So much rapturous strength,
And a lingering earnestness.

But then she feared, that they would ask,
To choose one over the other,
But then she silently prayed in her head,
That no matter what, there’d be no change.

For the front yard was a happy place,
Where all she respected and all she loved,
Stayed intact, and then preserved,
But that day, she finally chanced upon.

One hinted, one asked and the other didn’t say,
All trying to go the very same way,
But alas, it was so unfortunate,
That they had to carve their paths as separate.

What would she speak, what could she tell?
Whom did she value, above all else?
All were spirits, so delicate, all lovable,
All justifiably true to her, all more than friends.

How could she lie, how could she say,
That for each one of them, she didn’t care,
How could she be selfish, how could she play?
With their emotions, and turn some away?

And so, she didn’t know where to go,
Which path to tread, or how this would end,
Because the truth was this, there was one she loved,
Above all others, and repeatedly told, so much.

That didn’t mean this, I’ll say,
That for others she held no affection, she could swear,
By the heavens, and tell you today,
They mattered the world to her, the other mares.

But they turned upon each other and she witnessed,
Bloody battles, and with much distress,
They blamed her then, once again,
For when they turned selfish in love, they didn’t understand her hurt.

One blamed her of ignorance,
And the other of tyranny,
A little bit of distrust, unrealistic,
But she was no devil, not many secrets did she keep.

To all heads held high, imperial,
She bowed meek, with anguish, pure,
Weedy grew the front-yard,
She walked away.

The mares she cherished stood tall,
Bold, wonderful, magnificent,
If there was any truth to love, she thought,
That one would then turn back.

She wished to see who would follow,
As she trotted a reedy road,
But her wishes, she slowly swallowed,
Hobbling, burdened with her own load.

By twilight, she found her weeping willow,
A favorite from childhood, waiting for her there,
And in his branches, she was mortal no more,
Not knowing if a single mare had realized and followed….

Sun

When to augustine skies I stare,
Mine eyes are willingly led astray,
When so constant stays the burning blaze,
How can I behold him in single gaze?

In little pools, in and around,
Are strewn sprightly blooms, and some do crowd,
Pansies nurtured and then caressed,
Bursting to a selfless touch.

Yonder upon the seven seas,
He sprinkles a shimmer I cannot see,
But I can close mine eyes and feel,
Little trinkets upon my palm he leaves.

The sun, of mysterious alchemy,
Spilling forth rubies of twilight charm,
Painted yellow at other times,
So many palettes, yet so much warmth.

When the world he does illuminate,
The febrile nights of shadow and horror find and end,
In patience, the mortals await,
To then be rewarded.

The magnitude of his influence, I cannot clasp,
And claim for mine ,nay, it shan’t be so,
For he rests in the calm of a heavenly abode,
And would burn me, if I stepped too close.


A thousand eras does he span,
Providing for thousands more, a thousand lives,
But even as equal, every one of them he regards,
The fancy trinkets glimmer now; nabbed in single fist, he may belong...


3 am. 9th of August.

Heedless

On bare boughs, sparse leaves among,
Barren winds ran amok,
Many a tuneless ballad was sung,
As on moved a heedless heart.

Familiar like the place of birth,
Which the old nostalgically recollect,
Splendid moments, the times of yore,
Hemmed together on weather beaten paths.

The damp grandeur of monsoon calling forth
An exuberant cherub in consciousness encased,
Simple dreams and a simple lore,
Of a simpler love, even more.

Wasted scores weary violins play,
Starry nights, overshadowed,
Oppressed as in the unappreciable heat of May,
Useless as glorious souvenirs, showcased.

Aha, but wondrous opportunities does a derived wisdom profess,
Happiness in the hinterlands,
Surviving blooms on virginal snow,
Sanity to the confounded.

On reviving nectar, a greedy infant feeds,
On radiant a face lingers smile, puerile,
Skipping past to the sweeter childhood days, cradled
By the ones she holds dear but heedless, otherwise.

Here be joy, here be contentment,
Spring from wintry boughs do sprout,
Daffodils of liquid gold on rolling pastures spread,
Stolen peace exultantly does pervade,
Sinister cobwebs wisped away by sunshine, light-hearted
Merry innocence romps ahead,
Heedless now and unaware.

3:48 am, 31st of July.

Grateful

Together they strum, like men to paddle, co-ordinated, unbroken,
Like beads, threaded together, taut strings, stretched,
Fresh binding off the printing press,
Fluid enchantment that the waves possess.

The times of the orange sun and monsoon rain,
The seasons pass, swift in change,
Murky clouds of listless days,
Hang morose over sheltered bays.

A split, a break, an enormous crack,
Through shallow months, resounding back,
In exactness they wickedly invoke,
Insecurity in rooted silver oak.

A powerless surrender, scribbled in good faith,
In destiny’s grand book, on a very last page,
Confessions, sincere, even faithful frankness,
Didn’t bring home sympathetic reply, dutifully expected.

Harrowed, unstable, a gradual wither,
Venom to vein, a clever slither,
Fanged apparition flying here,
Tumbling in general disarray, vague yet clear.

Inquiry finding no retort,
No words, and no rewards,
Endurance tested and patience stabbed,
Finally to another flies burdened voice.

Threatening to flood, to overwhelm,
Is a baffling insanity, a cold dread,
But intelligent is beaver, a dam he builds,
A sanctuary of protected happiness, from nothing.

He pulls at painful debris, useless before,
Pads it together with expert skill, stability restores,
Doing kindness, in soft words and treats,
Mended is spirit, more than slightly.

Thankful eyes skim thrice,
At messages, multiple, saintly wise,
Searching eyes swallowed by raven night,
Meet compassion's gaze....... and beautifully cry.

Insomnia at 4:41 am.
July 8th.

With you, I am me.

When integrity questions, lies hide,
A coward’s mistakes, unfairly,
But to you, there is beautiful truth,
With you, I am me.

When grief swallows, in whirlpool of thought,
A bold pretense of happiness I play,
But on your shoulder, that weakness is crying,
With you, I am me.

To everybody, I try to make sense,
Such respectful dignity in speech,
But I lose all that, unbelievably,
With you, I am me.

False notions, and empty pride,
Gloating gossip and some more wine,
But you deem that unnecessary,
With you, I am me.

To distant friends, when i speak,
Concealed is all insecurity,
But I tell you, nice and neat,
With you, I am me.

They know me not, so they think,
She’s such a vulnerable, shaky thing,
But you know how my playful moods charge and swing,
With you, I am me.

I tell them stories, I justify,
Actions, and appear so polite,
But you’re aware of my goofy side,
With you, I am me.

Draped in thought, I cannot see,
When stress builds up, I suffer and writhe,
But like hot cocoa, you restore warmth,
With you, I am me.

Careless, uncouth and senseless,
Big-mouthed, genuine, funny,
Affectionate, unconfined, fearless,
With you, I am me.

The Midnight of 28th.
 

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